IT IS ALRIGHT TO FAIL

Hello friends!

At the beginning of August I wrote a post about committing myself to working and cleaning my mind out of abusing negative thoughts. 

For about two weeks I kept going very well, at least for the physical part. However, my mood was not the best. I am a full-time worker and I come home about 6 o'clock everyday feeling very tired. I am not always in the mood to work out simply because after being all day in the work I just wish to have a nice dinner and go to bed. 

However, since I had decided to be committed I kept working out even late night, which most of the time resulted in waking up very tired in the morning and coming home even more tired than the day before. The more tired I felt, worse my thoughts were. 

When I got my period (sorry if there are any guys reading) I had to quit working out for a few days because I had very strong cramps. Instead of getting the rest I needed I got even more depressed just because I felt like I failed my commitment. 

I think that one day my body just couldn't continue like that anymore and I had a mental breakdown. I realized that this commitment of mine wasn't doing me any good and I was just pushing too hard.

Believe me or not, but immediately after my decision to take a break and allow myself to rest my mood boosted up dramatically, I stopped working out when I didn't feel like to, I stopped being overly concerned about my diet, I started going to bed earlier and I started to meditate. And when I stepped on the scale after a week of eating pasta and ice cream I saw that I lost 3 kilos. Wow. :-)

My conclusion? It is good to commit yourself to create a healthy habit and change some things in your life, but it is even more important to listen to your body. If you feel like it is not working for you and instead feeling happy for how strong you are, you feel like you hate the world and you would hate yourself even more if you failed, it is definitely not ok. Don't get me wrong. Every challenge should be a bit uncomfortable, but at the end of the day you should feel proud and good about yourself. If you don't, then you need to change the rules.

I hope my story will help you if you get to the same situation and you will feel like the biggest loser. Just remember to listen to your body and if you fall down, take a few days break, adjust your challenge so it fits your needs better and then continue again.

Love,

Julie xoxo